Poems

Mom
Why did you leave
Without even trying
You left us in the foster home
Bawling and crying

Why did you really leave
Got my heart on my sleeve
It’s getting really hard now
To try and believe

Now what do I do
I really thought the answer
Was going to be you

But you left us in the dirt
We weren’t trying to be hurt

Then
One day you called me
you said you loved us
You’re lying
You left us all alone
Without even trying
Now everyone said
I shouldn’t be crying

Then grandma took care of us
we thought she was fine
But in the end her depression
was as bad as mine

Now mom
You lost us because of addiction
You would always do drugs
and drink in the kitchen
Now there was an eviction
And an order protection
I guess you learned your lesson

The demons in us all
Can you hear their call?
They keep putting us
Up against the wall

Now you have to leave
There’s no smile on my face
You really think I’m kidding
You’re just a disgrace
Because of your drinking
We end up losing our place

Then all these years
I thought it would be great
But stuck up in my heart
is a whole bunch of hate

I know that you’re my momma
You didn’t mean to harm her
But when you choked out my sister
all you got was karma

I know you didn’t try
Because your brain started to fry
But all I can do is sit there and cry

All you did was drink
What am I supposed to think
You built a bad ship
now it starts to sink

Now momma
Can you hear me calling?
I’m just a baby bawling
I wish you’d come back
But I think you are stalling

I wish you’d pay the time
To prove that you care
But you know you’d get locked up
So your not even there
Said you’ll come back
You won’t even dare
Now all I can do
is sit there and stare

You really leaving
wasn’t really right
And you beating us
Gave us such a fright
That’s why sometimes
I can’t sleep at night
Dreaming of you and grandma
Getting in a fight

Was that really right ?

She lay on her bed,
Heartbroken and dead,
Crushed and smeared in a crumbling bed,
Sad and small she let her tears fall,
Fateful moments are something to be shared,
They take your soul,
Your heart too,
Why trust them, when they don’t trust you?
You run your moment, but then it ends,
Fateful moments why do you end?