Teenage

If you say so
It must be right
I musn’t fight it
Or else it might get worse
You’re always right
Because
If you say,
The sky is green
I say
‘If you say so’
If you say
You’re doing it wrong
Then I must be
Sometimes I really do think I’m right
But if you say I’m not
Then
I must be horribly wrong
Because everything you say and do
Makes the world
Revolve around you
Because every word you speak and swear
The whole world bows down to kiss your feet
I wish I didn’t
But I always fall submissive
Like everyone else
You’re not intimidating
It’s just how I long
To be actually recognized by you for once
So every time you say words to me
I say
‘If you say so’
And bow just like the rest
I feel as if I’m just
One ant in a whole colony
Waiting
Patiently
To be recognized by the queen.

A chilly Christmas eve,
Fireplaces fighting the freeze.
Children crowd the Christmas square,
Their carols fill the frosty air.
A Norway Spruce stands sentinel,
Lights twinkling a magic spell.
Winter’s embrace, crisp and bright
Snowflakes dancing like diamonds in flight.
Shoppers shuffle with stuffed sacks
Tomorrow’s presents and sweet snacks.
Little ones’ laughter echoing in the fading light,
Eyes to the sky awaiting reindeer flight.
Watching Santa Tracker in anticipation
Charting his progress nation to nation.
Waiting for Saint Nick to skim the sky,
Bells jingling, the red sleigh will fly.
His warm, jolly smile, full of Christmas cheer
He tiptoes ‘cross rooftops, magic far and near.
Fuelled by kind cookies and drinks,
Down chimney portals he shrinks and sinks.
Children sleep, dreaming of delight,
As presents pile up this Christmas night.
On every chimney, his prints remain,
Elves delight, it’s Christmas again!

As the sun sets low and the sky grows dim
A rainbow forms where you once had been.
Soft as your paws, light as your purr,
A bridge of colours carries you over.
You left your prints upon my heart,
Tiny marks that will never depart.
In every quiet, I hear you still,
A gentle presence, a love I feel.
No more pain, no more goodbye,
Just endless fields beneath a painted sky.
And though I ache with every tear,
I know, my love, you’re always near.
So run free now, where the light shines through,
Chasing sunbeams the way you used to do.
Until the day we meet once more,
I’ll find you waiting on that rainbow shore.

Drowning in words that were never said

Taken aback from what lingered in my head

Lament and forlorn

The fervid feeling stabbed like a thorn

All turns have a result

But you’re not at fault

It rings around every corridor

So turbulent, it’s hard to ignore

Once you open every door

It rings more than before

I don’t require defiance

Because I’m trapped in the silence

Silence.

I’m sorry for the way you made me feel.
I’m sorry for all the distance issues that make you stay at home.
I’m sorry for all the shitty things you didn’t do.
And I’m sorry for everything else you ever did.
But I’m sorry most for how close you got to me.

I know this isn’t the nicest way to tell you I’m done,
But after pulling me close
Then icing me out,
This is the best you’ll ever get from me.

How you told me wonderful things and opened up my eyes,
But now I see them for what they were,
Lies.

I’m sorry for every little thing that bugs you.
I’m sorry that every week you become someone new.
I’m sorry for all the distance issues that give you anxiety.
And I’m sorry that you used it against me.
But I’m sorry most for how you messed with me.

Most nights I wonder how you lured me in.
And I wonder if I was ever your friend.
I wonder if you do this a lot.
And I wonder how you come away without a spot.
Even the shittiest person becomes an angel compared to you.

How many times I pushed myself to understand.
But I gave up a while ago, I became my own friend.

I’m sorry for all that you’ve ever done.
And I’m sorry that you’ve always won.
I’m sorry that you struggle with your sleep,
And I’m sorry for all that you’ve sowed and reaped.
But I’m sorry most for all you’ve done to me.

I never thought that it would end like this.
I’ve always tried to support you.
But you never held my hand, only my wrist.
I wanted to be with someone who didn’t change into someone new.

I’d never had thought that you’d try to drown me,
Try to kill me,
Try to bury me,
All while making me love you.

Oh, I’m sorry for everyone who put you up there.
And I’m sorry for your friends everywhere.
I’m sorry for your happy family.
And I’m sorry for the people you make happy.
I’m sorry that you’ll never know who you are.
And I’m sorry that you’re still that star.
I’m still sorry for thinking of you every night.
And I’m still sorry that you’ve never had a fight.

I’m sorry if people turn against you.
And I’m sorry if you betray those you knew.
I’m sorry if you wake up alone one day.
And I’m sorry that you make me feel this way.

If there was a bird stray on the streets,
Would you take it home and let it grow its wings?
If there was a man, unbeknownst to you,
Would you take care of him all night long, and even let him in?
Yes, you will say that I know out loud,
But when met with the tragedy, you turn the other way around.
Call me selfish, for I would do the same,
But letting a stranger into my place, that’s an action I would rather not take.
Cruelty and despair fills the heavens before,
Even the homeless, poor, young and old,
Filled with selfish, wicked deeds and faults.
A thing called gratitude left at the fall,
While the story unravels it all.
The kind have to change,
Selfish motives still remain,
Self-protection has only one say:
Ignore the new place and men in a silent whispering way.

I wasn’t ready to let you go, but everything comes to an end
just like how my love for you was always there, now it’s gone.
Your sweet talks and smell, fresh warm hugs like cookies.
gone.

But why are you gone, Cookie?

When I’m in a boring class at school
where my mind refuses to stay,
I gently close my eyes
and it takes me far away.
I pretend I’m a pirate,
and I sail the seven seas!
I pretend to be an explorer next,
and then I’m chased by bees.
Suddenly I’m in Paris,
staring in awe at the Eiffel Tower.
Then the ground shakes and I fall in Egypt?
I see the pyramids and Sphinx lying on the sand in all their might and power.
Then I climb onto a cloud and I’m off to the Amazon.
I’m attacked by many different insects.
I wish I had repellent on.
After seeing the vast river,
I’m teleported to Australia.
There were so many kangaroos,
but sadly just one koala.
And last but not least,
I jumped and I was in India.
The Taj Mahal, Qutub Minar, and so many temples.
There was so much to see here.
At last, I heard a shout,
and my dream fell apart.
I found my teacher glaring at me.
I was asleep from the start!

Bittersweet
You remember the old cartoons
Peppa Pig, Bubble Guppies, the classics
A carefree life
No homework to stress over
Just fun

School.
It’s fun.
You see your friends,
You laugh, you play
More importantly,
You learn.
You grow older.
More homework, more friends.
But still,
Fun.

Middle school.
More drama, harder subjects
It all happens too fast
You lose friends, you gain better ones

Now, it’s almost high school.
You look back and
Reflect
The good memories, the bad ones
And then…
You say goodbye

Milo is a good cat
Milo likes food
Milo likes cuddles
Milo likes to sleep