I used to have loads of friends
real friends
but every day it feels like we’re drifting apart
like we’re on an iceberg,
me on one piece and my friends on the other
and that iceberg, with my friends on
slowly drifts into the ocean
but mine just stays there,
floating alone in the water
while I watch them drift away slowly.
I wait every day on the playground
and see them playing together
while I’m on the other side of the playground
holding skipping ropes so I can play with them,
and when they do notice me they run to me,
not to play with me
but to take the skipping ropes from my hands
leaving me with nothing to play with,
and whenever I am finally playing with them
another friend is always upset
and crowded with hugs and care
and suddenly I’m not there anymore,
but when I’m upset its a “are you okay?”
and they leave me to play and figure it out.
But I always help them with their problems
and once my friend was bullied
until she wanted to die
and I helped her the best I could
but when I was bullied she shrugged me off

Oh, the sunlight burns sometimes