Teenage

My big brother likes to help,
make a change on people,
I admire his eighteen
year old heart.
He thinks he is changing the world,
but he already has.
His unknown style, with long legs,
it’s going to startle.

I like to watch him,
the sound of the chewing.
I admire his appreciation,
of having the necessary things.
Never complaining,
no wasting.

I try to warn my big brother
about people,
point out that you can’t trust everyone
and there are a lot of strangers
behind that screen.
I should not want him harmed,
by anyone,
live without thinking what
other people think.

Love,
Hard to find.
Isn’t it
Easy or hard.
Look in every nook and cranny.
You will find it then, you
Try, and get hurt
There will be so many failures, you will
Have to get through broken hearts
You will never
Be in love
Forever,
You find someone,
You lose that person.
You love again.

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Baby did not like dog…

This emotion
lives in my heart,
though it also
rushes through my veins.

Most people believe
that it’ll break your heart
although others presume
that all of the pieces
will fit together .

There will be sunny days
where you will want to
jump up in the air
and rainy days
where you will lie in bed
and cry it out.

People ponder about its feeling
whether it feels like
adrenaline rushing through
or
as if you were diving deep
into the sea.

It’s as red as blood
and you wear it
as a red gala dress.

That’s a secret
I’ll never tell
Unless …

My secret lives always
in the middle of my head
If I could, I would wear it all day
I’m in a fantasy
Have the sensation of being in a cloud
I stress out every time
It tastes like eating loads of candy floss
With sheets of dove white
A pillow and a big clock.
I love to sleep because it’s like being in your own world!

My secret hides in my closet
Underneath all my clothes
I wear it on my face
But when someone looks
I hide it

My secret feels like waking up
In the middle of the night
And not being able
To sleep again
Until everyone is awake

It makes me want to hide
And be alone
It tastes like sand in my mouth
It stops me
When I want to talk

It is like the grey colour
Of a rainy day
And it is a broken necklace
That I keep hidden
From people’s eyes

You will never know my secret
As it is buried
Deep inside of me
And it is to far down
To bring out

I hate it
When people say
‘I won’t’
And end up doing it
Even after what they said

My secret lives in my stomach
It makes me shiver
It makes me nervous
It’s like waking up
and not knowing where you are
My secret makes me bite my nails, be without breath
My secret smells like a burning hot chocolate
It’s like carrying a really big bag
which is always full of thoughts
It makes me remember a rainy day where there’s only lightning
It never let me sleep calmly
My secret is a strange sensation going through my tummy
It turns my whole stomach
It is intimate and personal my secret
I’ll never tell my secret…

My secret lives
under my bed
It’s as black,
as the darkest nights.

As fearful as
a sharp knife,
it runs through
my house at night.

It tastes like mud
in someone’s mouth,
It brings fear

I will not
let it be revealed.

It’s here,
It’s frost bitten breath runs
Down my neck
The shadows claw
Digging into my skin
The colour of this demon
Is as dark as an abyss

It fools people,
It twist their minds
Into believing it’s me,
I’m forced to wear it as my skin
That there’s no escape

I hear its whispers
Saying,
Do it,
You’re worthless,
Do it,
no one cares,
Do it,
You won’t be missed

Slowly the whispers
Turn into screams
I distance myself
From the people around me
Because I know that
If I don’t
It’ll be my downfall

I’m tired of people saying
“It’s all in your head”
“It’ll get better”
“I know how you feel”

No,
You don’t

You don’t know my hardship,
You don’t know
What it’s like
To be abandoned,
To be left in the dirt,
By the people
Who are supposed
To love you

I’m scared of
Being abandoned again,
I’m scared of losing my battle…

My secret lives inside
Buried deep in my heart
Somewhere no one can reach

I’d wear it in a locket
Closed with a key
I’d throw into the river

It’s a burden
My burden
A heavy weight
Resting inside me

It tastes
Dark, powerful
Spicy and sweet
Makes tears fall from my eyes

The memory looks
As pure as an angel
But to think, to remember it
That’s when evil takes over,
you see demons

To tell someone
To be so cruel and share my secret
Would be selfish
Unfair

I would never let anyone else
Suffer as I do, by remembering
What they might, just might
Have forgotten