I had a terrible aversion to myself

The whispers of what I say lay on the shelf

I’m here yet again same as before

It always remembers me as I enter the door

The disgrace

The one who people wanted to erase

I’d been stabbed in the heart till it couldn’t break anymore

Sounds of shattering I couldn’t ignore

The emptiness is where I found my querencia

The sound of silence had a Valencia

Shot down before I could get on my feet

Gun fired quicker than a heartbeat

The emptiness was ringing in my ears

It was now I had to hide my tears

I lost every aspect

Puzzle pieces I can’t connect

Reverberations play through the weight behind my eyes

Those sounds were like my very own cries

I made it my legacy to take control

But instead, I let myself fall into this hole

The guiding light in a starless night

Dragged into a place where problems are the biggest sight

I felt lonely within all my shame

And that’s how loneliness learnt my name.