A place where I don’t belong,
Feeling all kinds of wrong.
Why is this happening to me,
a feeling that’s now familiar, not new to me?
Why does no one care,
why am I such a failure, it’s so unfair.
I just want a time and place for me to shine,
is that too much to ask for just this one time?
Rejection always hurts no matter what was the plan,
want the feeling of acceptance, being loved, part of the fam.
snide comments take a hit directly towards me,
sure no problem your not feeling right, I’m a target until I flee.
Why is it like this? Why do you win?
You’re always right, where do I even begin.
Don’t look at me like that, why do I deserve to be treated this way,
when you’re the one with the problem, stop running away.
just be yourself, let yourself shine,
stop running after others it will become your time.
You suck, stop hurting others cuz you’re in pain,
go get help, stop giving us the blame.
Why am I the victim of all your anger, leave me alone, let me be,
I’ve had enough of being the brunt of your hardship, took me time to see.
I’ll get up of course and move on,
pretend I’m fine, smile, live life, inside my heart weighing a ton.
People don’t see the pain, don’t see what’s really inside,
seeing their smiles makes me wanna hide.
We’re all hiding something we don’t want others to see
some harder than others, some find it easier to be free.
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I not fit?
To be a part of something I am never it.
I pretend I’m fine like everything’s great,
when deep inside I’m broke and my heart just aches.
Walking around with a stone on my heart,
I’ll live through it eventually, through all this dark.