Three years.

Three years since I thought I was stuck

Stuck in the moment you left

Your beachy ringlets stared at me like Medusa’s snakes

Framed as a monster

But really just some hurt little boy

Your dad left early

Your mom barely paid attention to you

It still hurts me

When I think about how you ripped my letter

Just like my heart

Some part of me knew you cared

But some part of me knew you didn’t

I won’t tell anyone I waited

And you won’t tell anyone

The secrets I kept to myself

Something that i hid in the deepest parts of me

You knew

And you kept it there in the deepest parts of you

You were always resistant and scared

But why me

Why was I the one you confided in

Maybe it was my gentle eyes

Or my wavy hair

Or maybe it was the fact we were broken in the same ways

You look at me with such hatred

And I’ll never understand why

My guilt eats me alive

Just like how your fear ate every part of you with a soul

Even though we’re apart

We never talk

We give glares and mean taunts

I hope your okay

I hope you find peace in knowing you shouldn’t be responsible for him

That’s not your job

I hope you’re okay

I hope you find every little piece of love you can and let it hug you

You were worth it Medusa

The six months were worth it

And even if those six months are the death of me

I hope you’re okay

I hope your dad finally lets you cry

And I hope your mom finally says I’m proud

I hope your brother stops depending on you

We could’ve been so great

We could’ve been legendary

But if it really was just momentarily

I hope you’re okay