I can’t count how many times I’ve heard
I told you so
Ladies and gentlemen save your words
It’s a waste I know.
But I don’t regret a single moment of him
He was what I needed
What I wanted
He was an experience and a lesson.
These points have been made so clear
I don’t need a reminder
and I’d hate for your limitless words to be wasted.
The road I took
I chose not to rush into my Ranga Pravesham
Not because I fear the stage,
But because I wanted it to be a moment,
I could hold with pride, not one and look back and regret,
I chose to wait until my dance pleased me
Until every movement felt like my truth, not just tradition,
Until every moment reflected the dancer I wanted to be,
not just the one others expect to see
I chose to wait until I had learnt all I had to
Until every step held meaning,
and every movement was understood, not memorised
I didn’t turn away from the spotlight.
I just chose to wait for it to earn it to let it fall
on the right version of me, the patient
and your discipline, one I love that grew far from applause
I chose to complete my Visharada exams
And have earned the right to teach, but my age stands between me and a salary
To science in the morning to steps in the evening.
I chose both timetables and Talas
because only in that Balance could I truly dance
Still, I chose this path to become the dancer.
I dreamt of not rushed, not reduced
And like the poet, I took the road less travelled,
and that has made all the difference
Sister’s relationship is weird
I hate her, and love her at the same time
Seeing her smile, makes me mad and happy at the same time
Tempting to not annoy each other,
Eager to fart on her pillow,
Reality of having is a sister is hatred but secretly you know you love each other.
social media destroys life,
destroys people,
destroys how you see your self
I see my little sister compare herself to people online,
Hurts me,
BECAUSE it’s not real,
Its all edited and fake.
We will all die someday,
Life is too short to compare yourself to some girl online.
Everyone is pretty the way they are.
So don’t compare yourself.
It will destroy you.
You cut and cut until there is nothing left,
skin like paper, torn —
as if pain could bleed out the silence,
as if your arms could carry
what your mouth never says.
I see the jump in your shoulders
when someone laughs too loud.
The way you shrink at questions,
like the wrong word
might shatter you.
You wrote on your status:
“give in or end everything
I can’t do either
but I need to do one.”
I stared at the words like they were a countdown,
like the final click of a ticking clock. Like you’d already chosen one.
I wanted to type are you okay?
But that felt too small.
So instead I ask:
Are you eating?
Are you sleeping?
Do you cry when nobody’s seeing?
Because I see you.
I see you
even when you try to vanish into your blazer,
even when your smile is stitched with threads too thin.
I see the way you flinch
when someone mentions love
like it’s a joke
you were never invited to laugh at.
You are not a burden.
You are not too much.
You are not the problem.
You are you.
And I need you here.
Even if you don’t believe that yet.
There is a place
I found a place
I stayed for a while in that place
It made me feel safe
Thinking I found my place
Every day and night I stay in my place
Named it My Space
People start to stay in my place I called My Space
I don’t feel safe
I have to find another place
To call My Place, feel safe and have my own space
i hate it when u get angry
i hate it when u lie
i hate it when ur cranky
i hate it when u sigh
i hate it when u don’t care
and make me feel sad
i hate it when you stare at me
and make me feel mad
i want u to care
even more than i do
i want u to show up
and stop me feeling blue
when i look at u i feel guilty
as if it’s all my fault
others feel pity
as i sit there and sulk
you had a choice
and you made it clear
you wanted her
and left us with a tear
sometimes i wish it could be different
sometimes i wish u stayed
sometimes i wish u tried harder
but instead our bond fades
you try to turn it on me
and say it’s me to blame
which makes me feel empathy
which is ur aim
i’m sick of giving you what you want
and the reactions you see
my trust is now locked
and i’m throwing away the key
i gave you chances
and there is no more
cos trying to talk to you
feels like an endless chore
i always get jealous
seeing people with their dad
wishing that could be me
but instead i’m left sad
maybe it’s for the best
maybe it’s not meant to be
but i won’t forgive u
for the hurt you still give me
Yet again I find
It’s you on my mind
Like a secret best kept true
All I think about is you
Like the North Star at night
Gleaming in my pleading sight
I feel you in my heart
And fear when we’re apart
As I hear you in the thunderous beat
And the birds who shed a tweet
As I see you in darkest night
And the swans who slowly take flight
Like love it suddenly appears
Like you it protects me from all my hidden fears
Yet again I find you
Guiding me through lives new
Hiding lies and freeing all things true
I see you in the trees and their gentle blow
As I spin with feelings I now know
Like a song you play in me
And from my cage you set me free
The unbreakable void – will I break it before it breaks me?
Shrouded by mist I stand – deserted and lonely, feeling cracked
A blur of hope – all warm and fuzzy – gone in a minute, all cold and hard
Happiness – a term, something I never saw, never truly felt,
Darkness is where I’ve lived
Trapped in this void, so strange I feel strangled, so, I scream and bang
Let me out – but who will? That remains unknown to me and you
A string of light, hanging on the horizon
Powerless like me – about to fall and fail
But it doesn’t, instead it rises high and above, bright and powerful
The darkness melts away
Sucked in by the light
An ignited fire
Roaring fiercely
Golden streaks paint the sky
The yolk bleeds warmth
It’s oppressive power
An admirable quality
It’s unparalleled power, unmatched
The buzzing sound, a lullaby
I feel… HAPPY
Is this really what it means? If so, I’ll rejoice I’ll never let go
Drenched in golden rays
The golden nectar
Harmless but yet fierce
I drink it deeply, endlessly
Happiness….I finally know you
Nimisha
19/5/2025
She makes her way out of the cocoon
Spreading wings so bright, they shine like the moon
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
She flutters around like a fickle-minded child
In search of flowers with nectar sweet and mild
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
She sets her gaze upon another
One quite unlike any other
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
She begins to plan their future together
Believing that it will last forever
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
Soon there is to be one more
Excitement runs through her core
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
She lays the egg and looks at it for a moment so brief
As it lies there in the moonlight upon a leaf
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
Three weeks have passed, she’s become frail
Her once bright wings, now are pale
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon
Noticing her rugged breath
With open arms she embraces death
Now aware of her impending doom
Knowing that she too will pass soon