Teenage

i hate it when u get angry
i hate it when u lie
i hate it when ur cranky
i hate it when u sigh
i hate it when u don’t care
and make me feel sad
i hate it when you stare at me
and make me feel mad
i want u to care
even more than i do
i want u to show up
and stop me feeling blue
when i look at u i feel guilty
as if it’s all my fault
others feel pity
as i sit there and sulk
you had a choice
and you made it clear
you wanted her
and left us with a tear
sometimes i wish it could be different
sometimes i wish u stayed
sometimes i wish u tried harder
but instead our bond fades
you try to turn it on me
and say it’s me to blame
which makes me feel empathy
which is ur aim
i’m sick of giving you what you want
and the reactions you see
my trust is now locked
and i’m throwing away the key
i gave you chances
and there is no more
cos trying to talk to you
feels like an endless chore
i always get jealous
seeing people with their dad
wishing that could be me
but instead i’m left sad
maybe it’s for the best
maybe it’s not meant to be
but i won’t forgive u
for the hurt you still give me

Yet again I find
It’s you on my mind
Like a secret best kept true
All I think about is you
Like the North Star at night
Gleaming in my pleading sight
I feel you in my heart
And fear when we’re apart
As I hear you in the thunderous beat
And the birds who shed a tweet
As I see you in darkest night
And the swans who slowly take flight
Like love it suddenly appears
Like you it protects me from all my hidden fears
Yet again I find you
Guiding me through lives new
Hiding lies and freeing all things true
I see you in the trees and their gentle blow
As I spin with feelings I now know
Like a song you play in me
And from my cage you set me free

The unbreakable void – will I break it before it breaks me?

Shrouded by mist I stand – deserted and lonely, feeling cracked

A blur of hope – all warm and fuzzy – gone in a minute, all cold and hard

Happiness – a term, something I never saw, never truly felt,

Darkness is where I’ve lived

Trapped in this void, so strange I feel strangled, so, I scream and bang

Let me out – but who will? That remains unknown to me and you

A string of light, hanging on the horizon

Powerless like me – about to fall and fail

But it doesn’t, instead it rises high and above, bright and powerful

The darkness melts away

Sucked in by the light

An ignited fire

Roaring fiercely

Golden streaks paint the sky

The yolk bleeds warmth

It’s oppressive power

An admirable quality

It’s unparalleled power, unmatched

The buzzing sound, a lullaby

I feel… HAPPY

Is this really what it means? If so, I’ll rejoice I’ll never let go

Drenched in golden rays

The golden nectar

Harmless but yet fierce

I drink it deeply, endlessly

Happiness….I finally know you

Nimisha
19/5/2025

She makes her way out of the cocoon
Spreading wings so bright, they shine like the moon
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

She flutters around like a fickle-minded child
In search of flowers with nectar sweet and mild
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

She sets her gaze upon another
One quite unlike any other
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

She begins to plan their future together
Believing that it will last forever
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

Soon there is to be one more
Excitement runs through her core
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

She lays the egg and looks at it for a moment so brief
As it lies there in the moonlight upon a leaf
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

Three weeks have passed, she’s become frail
Her once bright wings, now are pale
Unaware of her impending doom
Not knowing that she too will pass soon

Noticing her rugged breath
With open arms she embraces death
Now aware of her impending doom
Knowing that she too will pass soon

I’m really scared, and I have nowhere to go
No one to confide in
In this wicked world, nobody cares whether you live or die
Every night I soak my pillow with tears
I keep waiting for the sun to rise again

Let me continue my struggles, the street is really tough
We’re really in a very wicked world
I struggle to live in this no man’s land I’ll keep fighting
I won’t give up

I’m trying to make ends meet
Trying to make my family proud
Knowing one day I’ll definitely make it in life
I know that i have a very bright future ahead of me
And no human will stop me
It’s going to be better some day

Out in the rain
In a crowded lane
But all alone
Pain all through my bones

A humming bird without its voice
A loud cry within making a high noise
A caterpillar stuffed in its cocoon
Trying to fly like a butterfly too soon

The ocean never stopped roaring
It’s the people who made it quiet in the morning
People came to bring some light
But the darkness within held me tight

At the heart of the campus, in the playground
lies a broken abandoned twig
Unaware of its surroundings,
it lies on ground with no life
Once a part of a mighty tree, green and bright
now a fragment, brown and broken
A silent observer a motionless sight,
but a reminder of life
It watches the children play and have fun
while it lies forgotten beneath the sun
It wonders if anyone notices or cares
But no one notices
It waits for decaying itself to the earth,
but it reminds itself that
it is a tiny world for the micro-organisms
Even though small and unnoticed,
it teaches us to enjoy our life
before we return to the earth

I walk through streets where shadows fall,
Brick and bone beneath it all.
The sky remembers every scar,
Yet still I wish, upon a star.

The echoes of the guns remain,
A distant drum of endless pain.
Yet in my heart a whisper grows-
A seed of peace that no one knows.

I see a child with eyes so wide,
Not yet taught to choose a side.
And in that gaze, I find the thread,
Of all the words we left unsaid.

Let swords be turned to ploughs one day,
Let kindness light the darkened way.
Though I am worn and hope is thin,
I dare to dream we’ll start again.

For after storms, the rivers clear,
And in each dawn, new songs appear.
I’ll hold this hope through night’s embrace,
That peace will find this shattered place.

Crying in the rain,
To hide my tears,
Masking all the pain,
My trauma and fears.

Crying in the rain,
So you don’t see,
All the things I’ve gone through,
Like what you did to me.

Crying in the rain,
Watch it wash away,
The anxiety and suffering,
I found that one day.

Crying in the rain,
So I can be alone,
Away from my past,
Crying unknown.

I was once a lost soul, adrift,
once forgotten by the feeling of hope,
as I made my way toward split ends of rope
a hand grabbed mine, said “No,” and led the way.
“What do we say to death?
We say not today.”
And that hand I hold to my heart as there are no words to explain
the beauty of his smile,
the words that speak through his voice
my love for him could not be detained
He taught me what a silver lining is,
he taught me be not afraid,
everyone has fears that soon go away.
I was shown the light in forms physical,
I saw myself, the waves in forms emotional,
as they crested warm and gentle,
under the scorching sun.
“I’m no longer alone, I don’t have to run.”
And like photonic dissonance,
both our lights shine
they both come together,
both visible as one.
to form a love, divine
a love seen through golden brown eyes
something no one could imagine,
no one could dream,
no one could feel these words on the screen
poets, paupers, kings and queens could never feel what it feels like to be both heard and seen.
And because of him,
my soul reunites,
my heart bleeds love with every beat
and with this realisation came another fulfilling moment,
hope was never just a feeling,
it was a person.