I love Sri Lanka, she is my home,
A beautiful island where I roam.
Gazing up at a starlit dome,
A playground where the insects roam.
With sparkling, oh so beautiful flies,
Do not be deceived, just use your eyes!
For when the night brings a magical glow,
They transform in the dark below.
The sparkling fly, a wonderful guide,
A firefly home, with me by its side.
I’m Everest Spring,
My name sounds happy, I used to be happy.
I used to love books
I used to love music
Most of all, I used to love sunsets.
I used to sit on the porch, listening to the same songs,
Sometimes I would read romance books,
I would swoon over how perfect the boy and girl’s relationship would be.
Most of all I was normal.
Normal,
I don’t remember what normal felt like,
Not anymore.
I was in year 8,
Popular,
Pretty,
Smart,
Perfect.
Everyone loved me
Everyone.
The mean girls, The jocks
Teachers, even the meanest ones
Always had something good to say.
But the one I liked most?
Zach.
He was handsome, cute with beautiful blue eyes
that always hit the light just right and perfect sandy brown hair.
But I didn’t like him because of that,
I liked him because he watched the sunset with me,
Every Sunday, we hanged out.
But it was more than hanging out: we quietly became boyfriend and girlfriend,
Sunset dates every Sunday.
Then she came, Deiana.
Everybody loved her – except me.
I knew her – and she wasn’t what everyone thought.
I knew, but I didn’t say anything.
Everything changed, she was suddenly the Pretty, Popular, Smart Perfect Girl.
But I was his girl wasn’t I?
He started getting texts a lot.
In school,
It’s nothing right?
During our dates,
He must be busy.
During breaks,
Planning with friends.
One day, it got the better of me.
I trust him, Just curious
His phone was unlocked, left on the porch table. Went to the bathroom
“Hey. We still on for the coffee Date?”
Date.
“Guess you’re with her, huh?”
“Babe she’s just a friend”
Friend? Babe?
“You said you would end things with her.”
“Just end it. Even if she’s just a friend to you she’s attached to you and I don’t like it”
End it. Just a friend.
Just a friend,
Just a friend.
He left shortly after.
He didn’t know I checked his phone.
He left, but the pain didn’t
We fell in love by the sunset.
I fell in love by the sunset.
Now I know just how deep sunsets can burn.
What if we didn’t have ground to walk on?
We take it for granted,
But without it we would just fall, fall, fall
That’s what you are for me.
What if we didn’t have air to breathe?
We take it for granted,
But without it we would just choke, choke, choke
That’s what you are for me.
What if we didn’t have the sun’s light?
We take it for granted,
But without it we would just be blind, blind, blind
That’s what you are for me.
What if we didn’t have words to speak?
We take it for granted,
But without it we would be silent, silent, silent
That’s what you are for me
I always seem to take you for granted,
Like a habit I can’t break
But from now on, I promise,
I’ll try my best to be different.
I loved you for loving me,
I loved you for protecting me,
I loved you for your trust,
But that trust fades for you and me.
I gave you my love and life,
But you put that to someone else,
Bud left me in the darkness to question myself.
Now in that darkness I roam,
Leaving you like an abandoned home.
That silence wrapped me like a mould,
As I gather pieces of love turning cold.
In those pieces I finally saw,
The strength I forgot I had.
I raise my voice bold and raw,
And claim the strength I always had.
Let those pieces go cold,
Because, now I don’t do what I am told.
I am a savage woman,
I dance with the flames of fire,
I rise from the ashes.
No chain can hold me,
I walk out with no crack.
You cannot break me.
You cannot define me.
You cannot tame me.
I am a savage woman,
I march with pride,
And I won’t shame to leave you behind.
I roam in the dark,
Carving paths in my own light.
My shadow marches beside me,
And I don’t show fright.
I am reading a book,
You, a chapter I once took.
I bring a lighter, with a small grin,
Where you stop, I begin.
You can forget it, but it won’t forget you.
It follows you, a shadow in your wake,
with no trace left behind it, no evidence of your fight;
the world keeps turning, your stomach churning,
yearning for the acceptance you always needed.
No amount of overturning the past will erase it,
the burning on your skin, fire blazing,
the clawing at your mind,
for a memory you knew was there the day before,
the month before,
the year before you changed.
Before you were considered mature beyond your years,
can you hear it? Still?
Like missing something that was never there,
how it felt to be normal,
your identity fixed again into one.
The shards of what was once whole, now shattered
into too many pieces to decipher,
the only remnants of what you once were, what could’ve been.
We used to talk in light filled rooms,
We used to laugh for years,
We ate we slept, we lived with joy,
No dread, no fear.
One night, it changed forever,
The words burst out from my heart,
You went away, you never came back,
We were both torn apart.
I walk in the house where we once lived,
Memories of you left behind,
Your voice echoes in the hollow rooms,
That I yearn for but cannot find .
I go to sleep to dream a dream
I hope that will come true
Every night I lie in bed and think about you
I have had a couple dreams about you
They were so very good indeed
I wish it was real life
All my dreams with you
I dream one day we will both be married
with children running round our house
We picked out their names
They are quite unusual too
River is a girl, she is 12 years old
Archer is a boy who is 15 years old
And we have one more child
This name is my favourite
Jude is a boy who is named after his father
He is 17 years old almost the same age as us
Omg look how far we have come from a stupid crush to true love
I hear a big noise almost like an alarm clock
My eyes opened softly
I turned to the side to see if he was in the bed
But when I couldn’t find him I looked in the mirror
And realised I am a child
But the worst bit about it is I didn’t finish my dream
That was my dream about my dream boy
You taught me things,
you kept me calm,
you are like a lucky charm.
I miss you boy.
You gave me a toy.
Life continues ,
we all have problems.
Thank you
He dated me
He broke up with me
I cried
Every night
Now he says
I should
Just forget
About him
But it’s hard
SO SO SO
Hard
He broke my heart
But I still loved him
He made me mad
But I still forgave him
I’m gonna show him this poem
See how he responds
Even if he has a
New girlfriend
I can’t stop loving
Him