True Love

Constantly falling
into the deep end
constantly failing
is it a trend?

My teachers are screaming
the bells are ringing
but the bell doesn’t dismiss you, I do

Trapped up – locked up even though I tried to
all these assignments and my hands are crying like I’m a brand you’re buying
at the end of the day I’ll rise even to your dismay

Overcontrolling banshees
very short fuses and smell like hand cream
in distress if I’m late even though you get paid minimum wage
hyperventilating if I use the toilet – saying it affects my learning
how am I even supposed to learn when your always spurning

so please explain it to me why you always smell like hand cream
and why you teach for the money and not for your pleasure

you can give me detentions
saying that my family doesn’t give me attention
but even with your intentions
I’ll rise

There’s abusive love
There’s misunderstood love
There’s controlling love
There’s forced love
There’s scared love
There’s fake love
And there’s take love
And messed up love
There’s different types of love
If your love is any of the ones above
then it isn’t love

Tears on my pillow
Tears on my face
Tears on my hand
What a disgrace!
Tears on my teddy
Tears on my toy
Tears on my bed
Because of a boy
Tears on my top
Tears on my leg
Tears on my jumper
The reason unsaid
Tears on my cheeks
Tears in my eyes
Here we are again
What a surprise

The thing about a broken heart
The pieces never stay
They leave in parts
One thing I’ve learned from falling in love
Is that it’s all heartbreak and none of the above

Irllylybidkhttybikylse
So, pls dbmh
Don’t, tma
Ik his
Trust me ibbb
Don’t bma
I am da
You itz always u
It always u
I’ve met a lot of ppl but nobody feels like u so

If I was skinny and wasn’t fat
If I was beautiful and not a rat
If I was white and wasn’t brown
If I was happy without a frown
If I had perfect teeth and a great smile
Then liking him could be worthwhile
If I played volleyball and didn’t dance
Then maybe I might have had a chance
If I was short and wasn’t tall
I could have been the prettiest of them all

If you’re reading this and relate to it
Just know someone loves you every bit
If you feel that you are not enough
Just remind yourself you’re beautiful and tough
If you find yourself covering your face
Or want to be a different race
Just know you are loved ❤️

Dreams come true on Christmas eve’s night.
Oh, how my spirit was so bright.
The night before Christmas was an amazing day,
Everyone decorated without a delay.

Awaiting the moment, the grandest show,
With Santa’s sleigh that would slowly but gracefully flow.
A sack full of gifts,
Is what he lifts.

He will soon appear
Spreading laughter and cheer.
In the shade of pink is where the snowflake danced,
Where couples in the snow also pranced.

In this land of wonder, oh very sweet and bright,
A pink Christmas night, such a neat delight.
Christmas is a place where it snows
And love and warmth in the air it flows.

If I was at war
Oh, I would be such a bore
Fallen in love
Love heart eyes
Daydreaming about you
Wishful sighs
Boys in uniform
There’s nothing as good
*Cough cough get with me bud *
Enemy to lover
Your the father, I’m the mother

What is life?
How do you live life?

People have their ways
Some are lost and confused
Others know the path of heart
While some go with the flow.

But I’m not sure how to do it
Does it come with a manual or do you do it yourself

It’s like I’ve been left in the dark
Too lost and too scared to find out where I am

Life gets me worried
I don’t know where to start
I’ve had loads of advice
But I don’t understand any of it

The path is not there
I just need a sign to lead me
A vision, an instruction

Life is too hard for me to understand

Life makes me cry in lonely nights

Life a word that makes me scream from the deepest pits of my heart

Why, why?
Why do we live like this with the pain and confusion?

It’s like a knife through my heart to blocked to remove
That is my type of life.

Pretend?
How could I pretend it never happened?
Pretend we never met,
pretend you’ve never held me in your arms
or that I never laid my eyes on yours and surrendered to their charms.

It sounds so simple to pretend.
Surely you must think it would be easy for me,
to live through such a dense lie,
but I am haunted when I rest
and once I rise by the fact that we never Actually said goodbye.

Once my pretending is over am I to just forget?
Forget our memories,
forget our laughs,
our adventures and our ridiculous inside jokes.
But to think one day we may forget each other’s voices is what really hurts me most.

And upon forgetting will our world not crumble?!
If you and I
both remove the same memory from our heads,
for it to never be remembered again.
Will we continue to live our lives satisfied with the presence of another in our lives

They tell me life goes on,
And, perhaps it does.
But,
Perhaps it doesn’t,
for how am I to breathe air which you haven’t exhaled.
How am I to read harmonic love stories,
knowing that our love hadn’t prevailed?

How am I to ever stop loving you.
Missing you, wanting you, hating you,
wishing you had died.
For perhaps if you had left this world,
Missing you would be much more reasonable,
with there being no chance of you again being by my side.
I wish it was so easy to simply Pretend.